Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Dealing with the cravings

Breaking my addiction to sugar is taking a lot longer then expected.  I'm in week four of the detox from fructose and I am still having cravings and getting the shakes.  Dealing with these cravings has made me develop some techniques to push through them. 

When there is a sugary treat in front of me and the thoughts race through my head to gobble it up, I walk a way and have a glass of water.  By the time I drink that full glass of water the craving has subsided and I can face the sugary treat (often being eaten by the boy) again without the desire to snatch it out of his hand.

When out to eat and everyone is getting desert, I have taken David Gillespie's advice and I order the cheese plate instead.  This really works for me because if there is something I love more then sugar it's cheese.  It is a great indulgence for me and I can still feel like part of the group at the end of the night.

This weekend I was faced with a craving like I have never had before.  The boy was making rocky road for a bake off he was doing at work and enlisted my help.  I made it through the whole process of making the sugary dish without once licking my fingers covered in chocolate.  But when the rocky road had set and I was helping cut it up I lost it!  I did everything; walked away, drank water, ate some random cheese in the fridge, and I even took a cold shower to take my mind off of it.  But it was still there and driving me crazy, so I decided to eat one small piece.  Boy was I glad I did that, it was so sweet that I couldn't even eat the whole thing and turned me off it.  Then I realized I must be almost off my addiction, because that is one of the signs, that sugary things that I use to eat tons of are unbearably sweet.

With cravings under wraps I am feeling like I might have kicked the habit, now for a weigh in tomorrow, yikes!!!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Getting there.....

I am getting there on getting sugar free.

I can successfully say that I have cut out all deserts and sugary snacks.  It hasn't been too hard besides when the boy is sitting in front of me eating a bowl of ice cream, that however is a whole other bag of worms.

I am now trying to get my house into a sugar free environment and it is scary what I am finding in my pantry!  The obvious are out the door: tomato sauce, bbq sauce (much to the boys sadness, though I think he is a hiding a stash somewhere), sweet chili sauce and well pretty much every sauce there is in there.  But looking at my pasta sauces and their sugar content was scary, as well as some of the canned soups I had in there.  Who knew!  I thought eating soup was a great, healthy option, boy was I wrong!  One vegie soup had 17grams of sugar per serving.  In the bin it went.

Now as I walk the super market isles I spend about 5 minutes on each product comparing labels and trying to find the lowest sugar content as possible.  My shopping trips lately have doubled in time, but I am hoping as I am learning I will start to remember which brands are the lowest in sugar and it will become quicker trips.  Probably should start a list....

I guess this is all part of the journey but this week it has been a real education.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Hi my name is Karen and I'm an Addict

I have come to a harsh realization, I am a sugar addict.  I know, I know you all are like duh!
But really I didn't think I had a problem!  At the beginning of this journey I thought the only problem I had was with the sugars that were sneakily added to foods and I would have no problem with giving up sugary deserts and snacks because I rarely ate them.  Wrong!!

I guess I was a bit delusional about my regular diet and to be honest I would blame a lot of my sugar eating habits on the boy.  I thought the only time I would have a sugary treat or desert would be when he had one.  I would just go with the flow when he was home (because a lot of the time he is gone on military exercises) and it was only every once in a while. 

Now that I am entering into my 3rd week of this new world of being "sugar aware" I have hit a wall.  While writing down my habits I almost burst into tears, it took me about 2 weeks to complete this list because it was a harsh reality to face.  I eat a lot of sugar and the obvious kind.  This past week I started to go through withdraw and it was not pretty, all I could see was cake, soda, and juice everywhere and I wanted to gobble it all up.  I was very moody and the poor boy caught the brunt of it.  That when it hit me, I'm an addict and this is damn hard.

Thoughts ran through my head mostly along the lines of wishing I was blissfully ignorant of how sugar effects the boy and I could go on my sugary way.  These thoughts and temptations soon past as does everything and here I remain with a better understanding of myself and what I need to avoid in future to be successful.  The boy has recovered as well and is trying his best to not be an enabler in my battle to kick this addiction. 

One positive note though, on the weekend I ran in the Run for Fun which is a 10km.  I have never ran in a race, I have walked with groups but I have never taken it seriously.  This time I was excited to get out and run and try to reach the end of the race without keeling over.  I finished in 1 hour in 20 minutes and I felt great!  Before this leap into the world of "sugar awareness" I would never attempt something like this.  But I found the desire to do the run and not for losing weight but because I enjoyed it and can't wait to sign up to the next one!

Monday, November 1, 2010

The Halloween melt down

Unless you live in a cave, you all know that this weekend was Halloween.  As an American in Australia I have always found it my duty to spread the joy that is Halloween and all it's fun.  There is, however, one big glaring thing that comes along with Halloween and that is candy, lots and lots of candy everywhere!

As the boy and I, fully costumed up (I was a sexy devil and he a giant death thingy), headed to my dear friend Kat's Halloween party I was full of confidence that I could get through the night with out diving into the goodies.  I planned ahead with bringing beer as my drink of choice (very low in the bad stuff thank goodness!) and the hosts were having a bbq so bring on the snags minus the sauce and I would be good.  Wrong!!

There were sweets everywhere!  I held out as long as I could but a few drinks in the mind and focus started to wonder.  "Oh one little M&M won't hurt" I would say to myself and then "just one shot of butterscotch schnapps with the group will be okay" and finally "oh it is Halloween who cares!!"  That is when I went for it.  Now I will say I didn't pig out terribly, but a couple of handfuls of M&M, a few gummies, and what probably killed me was all the sweet drinks. 

I woke up the next morning with not only an alcohol hangover but a sugar hangover.  I felt horrible!  I was only in my first week and I blew it!  But hey one of the rules is "Party food is for a Party" and well I was at a party, it's not like I lost it in my house but still no excuse. 

But moving forward and past this into a new week and hopefully I learned from my meltdown over the weekend.